I've been home from college for a month. I've been home from college for a month?! I really can't believe it sometimes. I can't believe it has been an entire year since I crossed that stage in Canton and grabbed my diploma. I can't believe it has been a year since I was at Prom with some of my favorite people in the world. I can't believe that I actually managed to survive an entire year of college. It really is surreal. The adjustment from school to home has been...strange to say the least. I love home, I really do. I love my family and their craziness. I love my friends here. But something feels off. Our dynamic is different. And I came to realize that there are so many different lives going on within all of my friendships that I don't really know about, and at first I hated the idea. I hated this feeling that the world as I knew it has started to tilt and reform. I hated that people aren't the same.
But then I got thinking. Why am I so resistant to change? Change is such a blessing. Change is what makes life so interesting and beautiful. If it wasn't for change I would still be awkward and friendless like in the middle school days. If it wasn't for change, I'd still be fighting with my brother over everything and anything all day long. If it wasn't for change I wouldn't have met some of my favorite people in the whole world. "I do believe I have been changed for the better." So many good things have happened to me since I graduated high school, and somehow I was not seeing it. I've been so worried about everyone around me at home changing and not having EVERYTHING be the same as it was before and now I think, how silly of me! I still have great friends from home. Maybe not the same ones as before, or maybe there are fewer of us, but they are there making me laugh. Heck, I don't even think I'm exactly the same. Bowling Green has done wonders to me. I have met some of the most unique and wonderful people in my time at school. I am so thankful to be one of the few who LOVES her roommate. I am so thankful that I came to school and instantly met new people that I have grown to love and that I went a good majority of the year without any homesickness at all. I am thankful that I have had the opportunity to meet so many different people who love God, and are truly inspirational in their need to learn more about Him and what He wants them to do with the lives they've been given. I am thankful that I conquered one of the most ridiculous academic schedules available as an undergraduate. This list could go on and on but I feel as though my point is made. This year has been nothing what I thought it would be, in the best way possible. I love the change that has happened in me that has truly been for the better. I love being able to relax for another two months before I have to be a big girl and take on my sophomore year of college. I love that no matter how far off track I get, God is always there to pick me back up and remind me what life is all about.
-Kat
